Like I expected, no sleep, been sitting in this same position now for way too long. Working hard though which is good and I mean it isn’t completely bad, I’ve been getting through all my new music I haven’t had a chance to listen to since I got it all and the pictures I’m editing are turning out great… So I really shouldn’t complain.
I’m still managing to make time for people too, though it’s kind of frustrating, only because I know how much work I have ahead of me and I’m so worried it all wont get done in time. I have a really good feeling about this though.
Fingers crossed… Now, time for some sleep.
5:01AM
Two days of photoshoots, been pretty good actually, I think I work well under pressure… Now comes the fun part or editing the photos. No sleep for me I guess, I feel pretty exhausted actually without sounding dramatic, I mean sure all I did was take the photos, if anyone should feel exhausted it should be Adrian… He did an amazing job, though acording to him, all he did was stand there, but, then again he doesnt really take compliments too well… Little shit… In all seriousness though he did do a really awesome job in helping me these past few days and I apreciate it so much.
My eyes are hardly focusing, it’s kinda lame especially when my bed is so close just begging for me to climb into it and get a good seven or eight hours sleep but unfortunately that isnt going to happen, for a few days at least. I really need to get these edits done and printed. Though right now I’m taking a little break for a slice of pizza. It’s good having something to keep me busy and keep my mind off the obvious, well the obvious to me, you probably don’t have the faintest idea what I am on about. This slice of pizza is pretty epic though…
Thanks again for helping me… Your kind of amazing.
Swam loves you.
Full day of work today, though all of this preparation work has taken me to 1pm, kinda frustrating… Why am I blogging? Well it’s funny you should ask. I am wasting my time doing someone elses work, pretty fucking stupid if you ask me.
So now I have until 5pm to bust out some great shots.
Wish me luck?
So Many backposts, everything has been saving as draft. Odd.
It’s crazy to me that the week is over… Well almost over. This week has been pretty freeing and I know allot of people won’t or cant understand that, I honestly don’t even think they will try to understand. The thing is, once someone has a perception of you or has given you an early judgemental label… Well you’re pretty much stuck with it and there is nothing you can do to change their minds. What can you do right? I’m not talking about people that don’t know me because I couldn’t really give a fuck what they think, I’m talking about friends and I guess these days I use the term friends very loosely…
Things will change soon. People are slowly losing me…
It’s funny to think that it had been almost 2 months since… Well… Us happened. I guess it’s not that funny, I’m not laughing… I shattered actually. I didn’t think this could hit me as hard as it has… Sorry I couldn’t be who you wanted me to be.
“ I don’t want to feel anything… But I do
— it’s all because of you.
“ You…
And Me.
— Thats all that pretty much matters right now… I mean, really.
